Running through the monsoon

Last night , went to Birdie Putt to celebrate Max's birthday ! They want to make me drunk man , but i need to take care of wan ting as she's the first to knock out. Grace & I damn steady to takecare of her. haha. I really like the atmosphere over there. its nice to chill with friends thou , let's head there sometime. Then after sending wan ting home, we went to supper club to find max ! wow , i love there more than powerhouse , seriously . but the music wasnt that good as powerhouse. haha. Alot of cute guys over there & max even ask one of the guy to strip infront of me. i need to drink , in other way of thanks for the strip ? hahaha. I did enjoyed myself through the night , however the last part seriously sucks. I am not sure what's wrong with my emotional. I broke down & cried when i reached home. . . cried badly. & I am gonna drink tonight again. .

Monsoonavenue

Blew It Off Again.

sorry everyone. Things always doesnt seem to go like its planned. I don't want to be happy. Cause I know happiness won't lasts. One day, somebody will take away the happiness from you. It always happened ! Predictable & I am used to it. Alot of thoughts , it never get seem to solve & end. I am still stuck at where I fall. I am glad to know & have you. sometimes , i just can't help to stop wondering. I need to take a few steps back.

Monsoonavenue

GOODBYE. . . .

You used to tell me studies are very important. Study hard & you will reward me.

You used to smoke camel cigg everyday without fail.

You used to be fierce and strong.

You used to be sitting at the void deck , chatting with your friends to pass time.

You used to talk to us.

That's all i can remember from childhood's memories.

Eversince grandmother passed away. Its such a big blow to you.

You no longer speak much to people , all you remember is the past.

You no longer willing to walk , soon you lost your ability.

You no longer smoking. Health is in a mess.

You no longer recognise us , image of us , is still little kids in your mind.

& I hardly remember more about you.

He's gone now. I left with no grandparents. Heart aching but i can't do anything. I just miss everything what my grandparents did to us when we were young. The smell of the house.Visiting them in CNY and almost every saturday to have chicken rice. sleep over there. grandma helped me to pluck the two front teeths with a string.grandfather scolds , if we make noise. The indian mama shop , we used to buy sweets. The playground we used to play.

Thats all i can remember. Today i will be going down to the funeral , back to the house that i have not been visiting for 9 years eversince grandmather passed away. I hope everything is still the same.

Suppose to blog about something happy. . . maybe next time. .

Monsoonavenue

It Was You , That Make Me Smile . . .

OH MY OH MY ! November is ending soon , which means UT2 is around the corner. Damn ! I just had the last test on monday. sigh. I really dislike talking about school right now. Don't remind me of that. I am disappointing everyone thou. Was actually thinking about careers recently. I haven found a wayout yet , still stuck.

Oh well , recently has been good for me thou . I have been watching alot of movies ~ Paranormal activities , 2012 and jennifer's body ! 2012 is seriously the best of all ! I am not scare if one day its arrive and i will just die by getting hit from the tsunami or earthquarke. i am fine with all. haha. by the way , any one really believe in that ? well , i don't. I think its just come to scare us so we will live our life to the fullest ! haha.
Fuck this week! its gonna be a busy week for me thou , even the weekends too. I am sorry, pal. i am gonna ditch all the appointment away. Gotta do something more serious, so hope you guys will understand. ! THANKYOU ! :D

Guess I better start get preparing and bathing. I need to get something done for tomorrow. Its a surprise ! ! hahaha. well its may be simple but i really hope you will like it. Love you ! xoxoxoxo

Monsoonavenue

Thinking About You Just Make Me Smileeeeeee (:

Its been months , I thought i can never feel that again eversince the breakup , the changes , the mature guy friend and the mask that i have been wearing. I thought i could never trust love again, its really hurts me deep. I really like the special feeling when I am with you , perhaps I am secretly in love with you. I can't forget the first day we met & how you spoke to me, you got my eyes on you. True enough that i am always checking out on you & finding opportunities to talk to you. I thought I am just being friendly, nothing much. I really feel comfortable being with you & so attracted to you. I didn't know you felt the same way too. WOW ! its really surprised me !

These few days , I am really contented. Spending time with you is always so fun , sweet and loving. We seem like living in a small space of our own, not involving with anyone but just the two of us. Hugs made it even more cozy and warm. I like those 6 perfect little kisses that you gave on my face when saying goodbye or tugging me to sleep. How can I ever resist you ? You are such a wonder. (:

Alright, now talking about school. Well , guess everyone should able to know what's school is for me lately. I really need some self discipline !! I guess I need plenty of it , seriously ! Oh well. . . Today's UT is freaking easy , no need to study 6P's and not even opening it. I can do it with my smart brain and common sense. HAHAHA. I guess Mathematics will be a tough one but aint no worries. He's gonna teach me tomorrow , I hope i will be serious in that. OH YA! One freaking funny thing i realised about my younger brother when i reached home today. He got a FACEBOOK , but he's a cheater & a dumb ass ! hahaha. Irritating but cute . Check this out !

C'mon pretty and cute girls , add this " handsome " guy now who has just joined FACEBOOK. !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

I am such a mean sister ! :D

anyway, a well done post finally.

Is my reader still out there ? *waves*

Monsoonavenue

Twit! Twit!